Hey all. Hope everyone had a good Easter :3. Guess I should get to explaining the title for this journal -_-() Well, tonight I kinda got into an argument with my mother, whom I've moved back in with since I came back from TN and all. She had a few rules about how I wasn't allowed to wear or anything of that sort, as I'm TG and she doesn't approve nor accept it. She then went on to say that were I to even see a gender therapist to talk to about all this, that I would not be allowed in her house.

We went on to talk about alot of things as well, like how I feel lonely since I can't really go out and hang out with my friends another, since they're either in college or work,a nd when they are free, are usually too far away. This leaves me being stuck in the house cleaning or cooking or whatnot. Just because I don't have any plans or have nothing really going on. I enjoyed this weekend alot though, cause I got to see my big sis Celly. She's really nice and fun to be with :3 We even got to hug...something I haven't been able to do with someone in a long while and that it meant something special.

But even though I'm stuck at home most of the time, my mom says it's my fault. Because I'm the one who chose to not get my license until late, and still no full one. That I'm the one who wasted four years of high school and didn't aim to get into a college. That I'm to only point at myself for my loneliness...that I shut myself away from them, the rest of my family. And that if I only just spent time with them a bit more, I wouldn't feel so bad. Well, if you all want this to be a family, then why do you all spend each night separate from each other? Why is my younger brother on the computer, yet when he wants to play a game, we all have to drop what we're doing and play with him. he's in high school dammit. he should be able to entertain himself, right? Or at the very least, my parents should be trying a bit more to get the four of us to interact with each other a bit more, right?

I'm feeling sick, sad, empty and alone, and angry is coming up from behind. I was even given a job application to fill out and return, since I wanted to get a job to get some money to come in for myself. But I'm scared. It's been so long since I've had a job, I don't know what positions they have, or what each job is like there at this grocery store.

I'm sorry for rambling tonight. Probably only said half of what was on my mind. But it's better than saying nothing at all, right? Until next time folks.~ Dred Lily

Ok, for the past two days, I've heard nothing but Brawl this and Brawl that from everyone I chat with. I'm getting tired of it. It's like fucking WoW all over again. I'm tired of it. Why couldn't they just delay it again so those of use who 1) don't have a Wii, and 2) Aren't able to get to somewhere to play the game, could still be able to hang out with our friends who have by now become addicted to another game. It gets lonely ok? I'm sorry I don't have 500+ for this system, and that it's harder to get than a bump on the head. Probably be another two weeks till I hear from any of them anyhow. Cause if it's not that game that's got them, its college or work -__- I hate it...I hate not having anyone to play with...

Sorry if I'm whiny this time, but I couldn't hold it in anymore. Till next time~Lily -w-v

Hi folks. Lily here. Thought I'd let you know I'm still alive, and you should all be seeing some new stuff up here in the next week or so ^w^ FURther is coming along nicely, and there are new surprises in store for our three unlikely heroes. Till then though, you'll just have to wait and see X3

~Dred Lily ^w^V Your residential blue furred Kitcat ;3

Hello all. I'm still alive, though it brings the question: does anyone really read this? I've been working on the ending of the first chapter, in between looking for a job, Otakon last month, and being nagged by parents to 'get in gear' as they call it. Little do they know about what will come to be near the end of January 2008....

But anyway, I have recently been tagged So now, for your viewing pleasure, I give you:100 questions

1) Full Name: Given: Daniel Charles Redmond, Potential:Lillian Avmina Hutson.

2) Male/Female: MtF

3) Were you named after anyone?: Not that I know of.

4) Does your name mean anything?: Good question O.o

5) Nick Name(s): Dan, Danpixare, Lily, Dred Lily, Lily ^w^V, Lil

6) What do you think you look like... name wise: Umm...Frank or Harold? o.O

7) Date Of Birth: 01/14/1989

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Pasadena, Mayland and Pasadena, Maryland (But not for long X) ))

9) Nationality: American

10) Astrology Sign: Capricorn

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Snake

12) Religion: "It's better to have an idea than a belief"

13) What’s your favorite smell?: Something non-stinking?

14) Political Position?: Bring back Bill!

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Milk or coffee (sugar, little cream, and honey)

16) Hair + Eye color: Chocolate brown (soon to be dyed blue), Hazel/blue

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: With short hair, Brendan Frasier

18) What do you look like?: Tall T_T

19) Any unusual talents?: I can take any sort of scene or even single strand of dialogue, and expand endlessly upon it

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Right

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: Lesbian.

22) What do you do for a living?: Write and draw my own comic, fight crime

23) What do you do for fun?: Watch anime, read comic books, play video games, play card games, look at videos on the internet, and Listen to music.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: pencils, inking pens, coloring pencils, and wacom tablet

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: Manga paper

26) Have you met your grandparents?: yes

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Secret <3

28) Crush: Mako-chan & Renamon

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: Melissa Joan Heart

30) Current worries?: I stress too much, what I'll do to move out and from then on onward.

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): CS_Fox, Minimew, Jaymanney, E.D

32) Favorite place to be?: Away from parents

33) Least favorite place to be?: With parents

34) Do you burn or tan?: Varries

35) Ever break a bone?: No

36) What is your favorite cereal?: Raisin Bran

37) Person you cry with: nee-chan and nii-chan, Lizzie, or Avm

38) Any sisters: 6

39) Any brothers: 3

40) Any pets: a dog name Eboine and a cat named Callie

41) An Illness: None

42) A Pager: No

43) A Personal phone line: Pay as you go cell

44) A Cell phone: " "

45) A visible birthmark: none

46) A Pool or hot tub: God, I wish

47) A Car: None T_T

48) Personality: Shy little girl, tends to help out wherever she can, regardless of the consequences sometimes as well.

49) Driving: Ok. Still learning ^.^()

50) Your clothing style: jeans, t-shirt, sneakers or sandals T_T

51) Room: Average size + Bathroom.

52) What’s missing: Female Wardrobe, Renamon Plushie.

53) School: graduated this past June

54) Bed: Queen sized, Three pillows

55) Relationship with your parent(s): ...

56) Do you believe in yourself: I’m sometimes doubting myself

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: It happens to me sometimes, but it's mostly one-sided >.>

58) Consider yourself a good listener: Yes

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?: I want to one day write novels for a living, maybe make some into comic form.

60) Get Along with your parents: …

61) Save your e-mail conversations: Rarely

62) Pray: Sometimes

63) Believe in reincarnation?: Yes

64) Brush your teeth twice a day?: >.> Maybe?

65) Like to talk on the phone: occasionally

66) Like to eat?: In moderation.

67) Like to exercise?: I try to when I can

68) Like to watch sports? Rarely

69) Sing in the car?: Sometimes

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?: All different

71) Dream in color: usually

72) Do you have nightmares?: sometimes

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: sometimes

74) Right next to you: my bed

75) On your favorite coffee cup?: nothing

76) On your mouse pad: Ai Institute

77) Your favorite flavor of gum?: sour/blueberry

78) Your brand of deodorant?: Dove

79) Your dream honeymoon spot: dunno

80) Your dream husband/wife: Caring, motherly, understanding.

81) Hiding in your closet?: ? Elvis?

82) Under your bed: Storage Containers

83) The name of one of your closest/best friends?: Jenn

84) Your bad time of the day: When being bothered by parents

85) Your worst fear(s): Living with people that hate me

86) What's the weather like: Cold and wet

87) Your favorite time of year?: winter

88) Your favorite holiday?: Christmas X3

89) A material weakness?: Yuri and TG manga and anime

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: Corndog

91) At the top of your "to-do list"?: sleep, draw and ink comic

92) The hardest thing about growing up: Never having the childhood that comes before it T_T

93) A pet peeve?: people who do stupid things, and then laugh at it.

94) Your scariest moment: Nearly falling down a mountain side, and no way of getting out alive.

95) Your attitude about love?: everyone deserves to be loved

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: Hmm...not sure

97) The worst feeling in the world: helplessness or uselessness

98) The best feeling in the world: to be loved… or being curled up in bed on a rainy day, with my cat or a loved one curled up with me ^w^ *blushes* Mako-chan...

99) Who sent this to you?:

100) Send this to 6 people:
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Hey everyone! Lily here ^w^V Got some great news. After alot of hard work, I'm ready to announce my big project.

~~~~A Vision Far FURther Than Dreaming: Issue 1-Through the Blue Looking Gate

Over the past two months, I have completed part one of the first issue right now. I'm going to post up a few pages as I progress with the second half. Today I uploaded the cover, and a "poster" for the initial start in the fall.

Info on the story to come next journal.

Till next time,
Dred Lily ^w^V